Recently I moved to an area where construction is going from sun up to sundown outside our window. It started out inconvenient and at times infuriating (usually at 6:30 am every morning). It didn’t take me long to ask myself why I was getting so triggered by this. So often a thing may happen where it seems completely justified that you are angry. But it’s never the thing. It’s us.
I thought it out. I am under construction. And this may take a while. I was stuck for a long time in old habits, an old way of being, but when I made this big move, I made a huge inner change. What is going on outside is just a reflection of that. I stopped being angry. I stopped being woken up by the construction at 6am, I just accepted this is part of what my world looks like right now. The choice to embrace it or fight it is mine alone.
I further contemplated why we fight so much? It is ego, the strong sense of self which thinks it has it all figured out, so it denies and fights anything that may challenge that way of being. And I’ve seen those who are most certain of who they are not feel challenged at all by those same things. It tells me the world will continue to poke a wound until we decide there is no wound. It is for us to experience each and everything that enters our reality without judgment or reaction but with a contemplative mind, asking ‘what is this message? What is the lesson?’ And then we might start benefiting from life and let go of the fight.
